That’s right. Not only am I Ms. Beach, the tough, first year English teacher…I’m Coach Beach, the (I have yet to fill in the blank here). And as I sit here typing away, I can’t help but wonder what I’ve gotten myself into this time!
OK, really I’m sorta joking, but I’m really not. Everyone laughs and is shocked that I would be more nervous about coaching than teaching, but everyone just doesn’t understand. I have a pretty extensive (not sure that’s the word I’m wanting to use here, but I’m going with it, ha!) background in athletics. I seriously have played just about everything (and if not played have tried). I was (well, who am I kidding, AM) a very competitive, hardworking, intense individual. That’s just me. I work hard at all I do, and sports was never an exception. Maybe this work ethic stemmed from always being busy with school/sports, and I pushed myself to excel at both. Being a collegiate athlete is also tied in there somewhere, and I don’t think people realize how demanding playing sports in college can truly be.
Coaching will be a great learning experience for me. And it’s going to be tough. A lot tougher than I thought. It’s hard to explain. I just have this “drive” inside of me…it’s sorta like this exploding feeling that builds up inside my chest. As an athlete, I would’ve used this feeling to dive for that loose ball or sprint down the line to beat the throw home. As a coach, I have no where for that feeling…that heart…that passion…because I am not the athlete. Sure, I motivate, I push my girls, but it’s not the same. (It really is hard to explain.) But as a coach, you can only do so much…the athlete has to find it within herself to find that exploding feeling. Does this make sense? I hope so…at least a little bit.
I don’t think what I’m explaining is too foreign to the English classroom, too. I mean, hey, let’s be honest…English class isn’t always the immediate favorite among students. I work every day to make English class challenging and engaging. I just haven’t found my comfort zone with coaching yet. I don’t want to be too hard, but I am intense and I have high expectations both in and out of the classroom. That’s how I’ve always been. That’s how I’ll always be.
Well, we will see how it goes! I’m definitely excited and looking forward to a great season…and finding out who I truly am as a coach as well. And I think it will be very exciting to see these student-athletes develop and grow on the court/field. And to see that exploding feeling kick in because it truly is an amazing feeling!